Keep your chin up little grasshopper

It has been quite some time since i have sat to write but i want you all to know that it has nothing to do with me waning on my desire to do this.  In reality it has to do with reality.  The last year has been harder than I have had in many years emotionally and financially.  Right now I spend more time reacting than being able to plan, such is the way of things when shit hits the fan and sprays in all directions.

I have been scrambling since December after losing my job to find a constant source of income and although i have made it this far, it is only by the hair on my chiny chin chin.  I have successfully gone through my 401k, my tax return, and have run out of resources.  As many people out there right now i have been hard working at finding a job and been unsuccessful.  I do have something lined up beginning on the 10th of May and am hoping that it is the beginning of making it back into the work force.  Although i have been working I have been working at a minimum wage job (without tips after years of being a waitress) at 30-35 hours a week and it simply doesn't pay enough to live on.

This only makes me more fervant in my quest to do this hike.  I have not lost my conviction on this and know that after making it through all of this i have an experience in front of me that will be that of a life time. 

Today is an off day for me and i plan on using it to get back to planning this.  I had a doctors appointment this morning with a blood draw that equalled 12 vials and although it doesn't leave me completely useless i like to take the day to think about my HIV and my place in this world.  

Think about your dreams today and think about how you can achieve them.  Then implement your plan.  I know you can do it.